I've found a new procrastination method. The giant babushka that my Dad brought back from Russia is kinda stuck, like I can't seem to open it. I'm kinda distressed, because a babushka you can't open is just a shapeless wooden doll, and besides, even if it's juvenile, I just love taking out all twelve dolls and lining them up. So now I'm always desperately trying to unstick it by slitting pieces of paper between the opening, but I'm failing miserably.
And here is the locket that I bought on Saturday from Rozelle markets:
It looks bigger in the pictures. It's not particularly special in anyway but I'm becoming rather attached to it.
I'm thinking of getting a trim within next week or two;; my hair has become kinda shapeless and the ends are well, kinda like brown fireworks. I actually spent double Eco today cutting off a bazillion split ends. Yes Kitty, I know it makes it worse but I can't help it.
Okay, interesting question: If you had to choose between never to kiss anyone nor be kissed again, or to never spend money on clothes/shoes/make up again, what would you choose?
Moey and I checked out Rozelle markets today. There was so much vintage and antique stuff there, like homeware (there were cups and saucers from 19th century =O) jewelery, magazines from 50's (or there roundabout) and some other random things. The clothes and bags weren't that great though.
Moey bought this really cool 'poison' ring, which is a ring with a tiny box on the top, which apparently was used to subtly poison people. Now she's getting a bit creeped out lol. Jenny bought this tiny love heart locket and a pair of earrings.
Then left Moey and went down to Newtown, and met up with Belinda, Kitty, Mel Quach and Karen to eat Thai at Thai Pothong, which was SO good. We had these fish cakes, Panang curry, pad thai and stir fried pumpkin, and surprisingly it wasn't even expensive. We should all go there again =)
King Lear was actually quite good, one of the best productions I've seen so far, but I thought it was a bit more sexual than was necessary. Especially the sheep. Ohhh the sheep.
ok. so i am now very aware of the fact that the sadcase, that is my life, is very much open to conversation and yes, jokes, jovial teasing and criticisms (not much of this i dont think...well i hope not )... and in all honesty i welcome it all. so much so that i am so close to endorsing it. i dare say its because it means that if this is the case, then none of what happens has to be taken seriously, and that i would be grateful for =P because really, if it all meant the end of the world to me, then it wouldn't be fun at all!
oh and in mentioning criticisms, i realise that honesty can be a bitch, but at the same time, is the best friend you can have...
[ this is just a mini rant, resulting from a reflection on today's occurences...or non-occurences... so if it doesn't make sense, don't worry : ) ]
also. i have come to the realisation that the tv shows previously deemed essential to my wellbeing, don't give me any sense of real satisfaction anymore. and at this extreemely subtle peaki in nerdosity - i feel that none of it is more satisfying than getting that really hard maths question, or writing up a set of really pretty and neat notes : ) ...
so im taking this chance of blindsightedness to declare a vow to nerdiness. that i wont offput studies for an hour (or more) of unsatisfying procrastination. . . .that mild sense of being entertained doesn't recover the guilt of being a horrible hsc student. grr.
plus, any great shows or movies or books (or life in general it seems) missed out now can easily be made up for during the 4 months of holidays (4 months, 12 days away!) later :) yesyes.
this is a moment of dedication which i hope wont slip too easily. not too much longer to go, so hopefully it wont be too hard.
I was going to show self-restraint today and stay at home to finish maths homework. But then my mum and I had to go exchange something at DJs, and in true mum fashion she suggested that we have a look at the sales. Spending ban on hiatus, I ended up with a sass & bide top, which was on sale. I was arguing with myself all the way to the register.
"You are not gonna pay $65 for a plain cotton tee." "But it's actually cheap considering its sass & bide..." "You are not gonna start that stupid brand-buying business."
Regret took over as soon as I paid for it, but it's starting to grow on me. It goes with a lot of things in my wardrobe, and it's so comfy and breezy.
And the Country Road top I bought yesterday.
The fact that I'm already buying clothes for summer just shows how much I'm longing for it. Only 2 and a half more months.
Actually, while procrastinating during exam period, I realised I had no denim jeans, so decided to cut off two pairs of jeans that I know I won't ever wear. I'm in half a mind to bleach and cuff one pair, but I'm scared I'll ruin it.
I spent today arvo just tidying up my room and chucking out stuff. So everything is neat again, and it makes me happy. I think its my OCD. My Mum tried to stuff mothballs into my closet. They are the most horrid smelling things, and I don't see why I need to have them if she doesn't. So when she wasn't looking I stuffed them back into her wardrobe.
Urgh this weekend has been so boring;; although I won't get this stress free-ness for a while again, I'm just feeling too lazy to go out. I was originally gonna go take advantage of all those end-of-year sales tomorrow, but already went shopping with Moey yesterday, so got to exercise some self control. Plus its so cold and grey, all I want to do is stay in bed.
I just can't get over Mika Nakashima's outfit in the first Nana movie. It's so gothic, yet so cool, with the giant blood red flower and the lace ruffles on the sleeves, and the black blazer with the shoulder pads.
Courtesy of VIZ pictures
graininess not my fault, I searched for aaages just to find a pic that showed what she was wearing. I love Mika Nakashima's voice, no-one else can sing 'Glamorous Sky' the same way. mm..
Today was just spent sleeping in, and reading "The Lovely Bones". It's a pretty damn good book. It's engrossed me completely so far.
The only thing that could've dragged me from it would of course be Gaspard =)
A while back I learnt that he was making a movie based on a book called "Vintner's Luck", so of course I went and borrowed it to read. That was a pretty damn good book too;; it's original and beautiful in its own way, being a story about a 19th Century wine maker and an angel. But since it's only recently started filming, there hasn't been much information about it, but I've just stumbled on a pretty detailed article on it. The story itself is intriguing enough, being about a beautiful angel who seems to be a sort of misfit in heaven and so takes solace in the company of a vintner, but Gaspard playing the angel just makes it all the better. I'm swooning, I tell you.
Also on the news of Gaspard, I found this video of behind-the-scenes for La Troisieme Partie du Monde, where he's just doing this hilarious dance at the beginning of the video:
And at the end of the video they give the address of the blog for the movie! It's all in French though.
Today was spent listening to Sarah Blasko on repeat, and doing my Eco portfolio for the FOURTH FRIGGIN CONSECUTIVE DAY. Not exactly in a good mood.
I thought I had finally made up my mind about doing gap year or not, but now I'm totally undecided again. There are a bazillion pros and cons for doing gap year next year or doing an exchange later on, I get so frustrated at myself every time I think about it. I hate making choices. =(
Sometimes I wished I lived in pre-feminist era, when all women just became housewives. There is something reassuring about your path in life being carved out for you, I don't know what. Sometimes its nice to not have to think and make decisions and just have other people tell you what to do.
But this is probably just a case of grass-is-greener-on-the-other-side. HSC tends to do that to you.
And OMG Gaspard Ulliel has a new movie coming out soon, called "La Troisieme Partie du Monde". There is absolutely no info about it in English, and using my crappy French skills I can make out that its a sort of mystery/sci-fi/romance film. Trust the French to turn a sci-fi film into a romantic one lol.
Translation of synopsis from official website (it's got pretty music):
"Emma, a young mysterious woman (the actress plays Fleur Delacour in Harry Potter!), has found she possesses a strange power: upon contact with her, her lovers disappear. Francois (Gaspard Ulliel <3), an astronomist who specialises in Black Holes, meets her at the airport and immediately falls in love with this beautiful and fascinating young woman. It blossoms into a love affair; but a few days later, Francois disappears without a trace. With the help of Francois's brother, she seeks to get to the bottom of the mystery, without ever doubting that she is there for a purpose."(Don't get what this last bit is supposed to mean.)
I really hope that this is going to show in Sydney; even if the film sounds like a conventional romantic movie, I have complete faith in the French to make something out of it. And anyway, being able to watch Gaspard for two hours is enough. mm.
Right now, I am SOO bored out of my mind, just sitting here sorting through a bazillion Eco articles. I'm so out of exam mode already;; I've even tidied up my room and put away all my notes, which is normally a post-exam ritual. Damn eco.
And YouTube isn't working on my computer =(
It seems that a lot of peeps are going to Japan post-HSC, yesterday I found out Nancy& Jacky and Fong & co. are going too. Colleen's going. And I think someone else is going too. They're all going with their FRIENDS.
I know I shouldn't be complaining, but I really don't like going on holidays with my family. They only do the boring touristy stuff, eat Chinese even if we're in friggin PARIS and return to the hotel by 8pm, latest. And my Dad is probably going to drag us to Disneyland. And guess who's the one that has to line up for half an hour with her brother to go on kiddy rides? ME.
No, haven't finished exams yet. But it looks like Moey was thinking along the same lines as me.
I deserve a break. I mean, I don't need six days to study for Economics, right.? My mum started calling me juvenile when I started watching cartoons with my brother today. But its such an easy way to relax your brains after that ridiculous 3U exam. But I have to say, the cartoons these days aren't nearly as good as the ones I used to watch. But the Umbilical Brothers have their own show! It's kinda cool...but lame at the same time.
I'm not really making sense, all this cramming is getting to my head. Umph.
peanut butter cupcakes, darkchoc fudge icing
i dont ever see her anymore
